I tried to be the good girl
\nI tried to fit in, although knowing I was different pretty much all my life
\nI tried to be what my parents would imagine me as a good daughter<\/p>\n
I tried to resists my calling and go with a ‘normal’ job
\nI tried to please everyone and be super considerate of others
\nI tried to not be too much, too loud, too wild… psssst, to keep it down
\nI tried to be spiritual, calm, always in control<\/p>\n
I tried to talk nice, always smile, be blissful, be grateful, and all that shit
\nI tried to hide my immense power and light so to not intimidate anyone<\/p>\n
I tried to bury my greatness to not appear less strong in front of men<\/p>\n
I tried to control my sexuality and keep it down, keep it in check, like a monster I was afraid of really having it’s way
\nI really did try all of that for most of my life, sometimes more, sometimes less
\nBut…
\nthat’s not me.<\/p>\n
I am not the good girl that sits quietly with her legs crossed and keeping the smile going no matter how she feels. What I carry on my heart, I carry on my tongue I carry with all my being.
\nI talk loud using all my body to express my feelings. I go wild when the music starts go. I can’t stop myself when I start laughing. I love eating with my fingers. I love the absolute sensual experience of whatever I create. I love the sensual feeling of touch. I love meaningful conversations. I feel the Balkans pulsating through my body. I can go deep, I can be super spiritual and I can be earthy, bold and messy.<\/p>\n
I am all of that, I am alive, I want to express all of me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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